The Green Blast of Light

Something I haven't told anyone....

The night of the accident I was driving from my house to Brendan's house. As I had mentioned, he had called me at 6:30pm and then again at 7:00pm, to tell me that he had a migraine and was leaving work early; that I should meet him at his house. I told him I would be there at around 9:00. It was about 8:50pm when I left my house. I don't know what time they airlifted Brendan; but as I was coming over the mountain, from my home, (5 minutes away from his), I saw a green blast of light in the night sky; like the one above. I remember thinking "wow, what the heck is that?" because it was such a large green flash. I did wonder at the time if it was some sort of helicopter (Medevac) on it's way to Dominican Hospital. I wonder now, was it the Medevac that airlifted Brendan to Santa Clara that I was seeing?

A few days after Brendan passed away, I thought about that light again. I wondered if it was a sign from Brendan that he was leaving this world? If he had his choice I'm sure he would choose to go out in a flash of green light. Knowing how much he loved the color green, pictured above.

I've been thinking about this experience on and off the past few months. This morning I decided to finally Google the following  phrase, "green flash of light in night sky". These images of comets came up. Now I wonder if I was seeing a comet or a meteor?

When I looked up the symbolic meaning of "green comet" or "green meteor" I found the following explanation.....It is not a good omen:
Green Comet/Meteor Symbolism

I don't know if I believe this. I thought I had given up all this kind of "nonsense" thinking. I was a pretty level headed agnostic before Brendan died. But I can't deny that I have been thrown off course these days. I'm revisiting my "past life" so to speak. My childhood and teenage years searching for the meaning of life. My 20's living in a Hindu Ashram. My 30's following any kind of New Age teaching that would give me insights into the meaning of life, death and creation.  Then I "smartened" up a bit, finished a Master's Degree and became more Scientifically inclined. In 2017 I read 7 Science Books about the human brain!  I thought I had outgrown this nonsense. Yet I find myself unable to explain too many recent phenomena or "Brendan experiences". What does it all mean? I have no idea. Absolutely no idea. I'm trying to trust, have faith, that there is a deeper meaning, a purpose, a divine plan. I want to believe it because it's comforting to me.

Yes, it's deeply cliche and almost too Hollywood and hokey for me to admit it when I say, "Brendan has always been apart of me, since the beginning of all eternity. Because if we are ALL timeless and eternal then HE has always existed, and I have always existed. I have always known him, I will always know him; and we will meet again.