Dialogue between Jane Eyre and Edward Rochester

Months after Jane Eyre has been working as a governess for Edward Rochester's daughter he expresses his true feelings during one evening in the garden:

Edward:
"Sometimes  I have the strangest feeling about you. .....Especially when you're near me as you are now. ....It feels as though I had a string....tied here under my left rib where my heart is....tightly knotted to you in a similar fashion. And when you go to Ireland, with all the distance between us. I'm afraid that this cord will be snapped, And I shall bleed inwardly."

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This confession to Jane is similar to my own feelings for Brendan. I can say that the situation proves true.  The difference was that I felt not so much that our hearts were tied together but that we were one being. That he was already a part of me. I knew that he didn't know that I was a part of him. That would have taken a very long time for him to realize. He had started to understand it only several weeks before he was killed.

He has never left me. He is always just under my skin so to speak. Not in the negative way that the phrase "under my skin" is used. Instead, It is the feeling of love and yearning and oneness I have with him. He is a part of me and I hope he always will be. When I die I so much hope I will meet him again. I believe he knows my thoughts and so he knows how much I love him.

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At the very end of the movie, after Jane and Edward are separated for many months, Jane goes back to Edward. However, he has been temporarily blinded. He can't see her when she walks into his room but he senses someone different yet familiar.

Edward: "My brain will burst.......What illusion is this? What sweet madness?" (he touches her hands and fingers)  "Her fingers, her very fingers....So many times I've dreamed of the moment. The dream vanishes and flies away.  Gentle dream, kiss me before you go. "

Jane kisses him, she kneels before him.

Edward: "You will stay with me? How?"

Jane:  "I will be your friend, your nurse, your companion....You will not be left alone for so long as I shall live."

Edward: "I'm no better than a ruined tree. I'm lightning-struck and decayed."

Jane: "You are no ruin, sir. You are vigorous and full of life. Plants will grow and wind around you because your strength offers them so safe a hold."

January 18, 2020 Brendan's Birthday

My FB Posts Today:


I put Brendan’s electric green bowling shirt on, and drove to the Derby Skate Park while listening to his favorite Bowie soundtrack, to visit Brendan's skateboard bench. It’s being used EXACTLY in the way he would have wanted it to be used! Wallets, keys, smokes, beer, MJ, even a green lighter! I introduced myself to the boys. I asked them if I could take a few pics because today would have been B’s 44th b-day. The guys wanted to “clean all the stuff off of it first.” NO, no, no!” I said, “this is what Brendan would have been doing on a bench like this.” They replied, “We sit on this bench every single day.” They were truly the sweetest young men!

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Hello friends. Brendan would have been 44 years old tomorrow, Jan 18th. He'd probably be celebrating with his good friend Vinnie Chiarpotti (whose birthday is today). He would most likely go skateboarding, bowling and playing darts while drinking his traditional Coors beer and slowly sipping shots of whiskey. (He thought it sacrilegious to 'throw-back' a shot.) Have a toast to him this weekend. I'm not a drinker so instead I will visit his Memorial Skate Bench. I'll make his favorite food, buy his favorite TJ snacks and listen to his favorite David Bowie Soundtrack. Here are the lyrics that I think describe Brendan the best, appropriately titled: 'Shine On You Crazy Diamond'.By Pink Floyd.