Donor Network Ceremony: Anticipation

Brendan was an organ donor. 3 women were saved after they inherited Brendan's liver and kidneys. The woman who received the liver transplant only had 48 hours to live. The Donor Network told us he has already helped 50 people. His skin for burn patients, heart valves, lung tissue, corneas. 

But that thought of him being dissected for such a gift haunts me too. His skin was my skin, his eyes shared times with me watching British Cooking Shows. Many nights I would lay my head on his chest and listen to his heart beat. The same heart that donated valves to an individual in need. 

The Donor Network is holding a ceremony this Saturday in the Bay Area, California. I am attending. I am so afraid of the pain that this will bring me. I've cried so many tears this year and I know there will be a torrential downpour of tears this Saturday. I plan to wear sunglasses and bring lots of tissues. I'm anxious about the event. I'm happy that Brendan saved lives. But it doesn't reduce the pain of losing him, not even a little.