One Year That You've Been Gone?

How Is It Possible
that I can still miss you so much Brendan?
It's already been a year.
And yet it doesn't feel like more than a few weeks.
It doesn't feel like you are even gone.
It's as if you are somewhere around, not very far away at all.

It's as if in just a day or two I'll be seeing you again.
When you were still here on earth I longed to see you
when we were apart even for a day.
Our usual Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays nights and briefly Sunday afternoons.

And now that I look at the calendar and the calendar says that you left us at just about a year,
I realize,
You haven't been gone a year....
You haven't been gone from my life a year...
I live you every single day.
I must be visiting you during my sleep.
You must be in the dreams that I can't remember when I'm awake.

I only realize it When I think about you being gone one year
You are not gone from me
Am I gone for you?
I hope I am fully in your life still Brendan
I can't "measure" where "you" are anymore.
So I'm trying to learn how to measure where you are, using different tools

I'm getting clues, I'm researching, studying in order to find out where you are staying while I'm on the earth plane waiting to join you---- where I hope you---are waiting for me

Wait for me Brendan,
wait for me,  please wait for me!
Please continue to visit me during my dreams and in your dreams.
Let's not forget each other.
Please don't forget about me.
I won't forget about you.