Have They Never, Dear B?

Dearest Brendan,

I never called you that name much.
It was always: honey, cutie, cuteness,
sweetie, sweetheart, Chinese Spice,
My Fine Young Cannibal,
and Lai-Wing...

Anyway, I digress...

The point I want to make is that,
most people think I should be over
the grief
of losing you...

It makes me angry.
I feel angry all of the time.
I'm sarcastic and short tempered
with people.

Have they never lost a dear,
dear love?
Have they never lost someone
that they touched constantly?
Kissed constantly?
Loved constantly?
Thought of constantly?

Have they never loved anyone
Whom they gazed upon intently,
Wondering how creation put
that 'one' together in that perfect way?

I don't believe they have.
And maybe they never will.
Those that think I should be
through the grief by now.

"Is he really worth all of this?"
"It's just Brendan..."
"This, all for Brendan?"
"What was so great about him?"

Those kinds of responses.
And these.....

"He wouldn't want you to be sad...."
"He wouldn't be this sad for you."

You deserved to be loved dear B,
And you deserve to be grieved.
And I love you dear B.
And I always will........